Mine

It’s been almost a week since Cat never showed up. I was so mad, I’m still hurt, but part of me understands. Today, when I was writing, I wrote about the time Kittycat got initiated into the sorority. It was the best night of my life.

It was tradition for the guys to crash the initiation. We had crept up to the window and we could hear and see everything the girls were doing. Cat stood there, in a hooded cape, and as part of initiation, all the girls went around and said how they truly felt about her. They were cruel and I became so infuriated. “But we love you anyways” they all said at the end. All the girls began to walk, and that’s when we ambushed the girls. Ashley and Whitney were pissed that we “ruined” their night. Whatever.

I knew Cat was hurting. I know that hearing those things hurt her more than the other girls could possibly know so when they all decided to ditch for the beach, I took Cat back to my house.

That night I knew she was mine forever. 

... or not

She never showed up. 

Luck!!!

Saint is such an ass. He came up to me today at my locker bragging about how hot Caitlin’s body is. “How come you never told me Caitlin had such a great body? Can’t appreciate it in those dresses she wears.” I couldn’t believe he was talking about her like she was a piece of meat… so I’m the scum and this guy is the hero? I had to call Caitlin, she had to know what a low-life O’Connor was, how filthy he was. Instead, she accused me of being the same way… I never said those things to the other guys, but apparently I put her down a lot, but I reminded her about the time with the dolphins. She’s the only person in the world that I ever showed them too. I miss her so much, and she knows, and I know she misses me too. She agreed to meet me at 6:30. 

Nick called me today. I told him to stop calling.

He told me Saint was bragging about my body to him. I told him it sounded like stuff he would say… but of course he denied it. Was he blind to the way he treated me? Blind to the fact that he made me want to die sometimes by the way he talked to me and acted towards me?

He brought up the dolphins.

That night was one of our best… but it doesn’t make up for all the other times. I told him I’d meet him there tonight.

I can’t go.

He doesn’t deserve me anymore.