STOP FOLLOWING ME!!

I don’t care what his friend said… Nick was following me today.

I was with Elsa, down at Coconut Grove having a girls day, and he was following us. Elsa and I told a cop, and he went up to Nick.

I don’t know what was said, but one of Nick’s friends came up and the cop came back to us saying we must have been mistaken.

We weren’t mistaken. He was following me.

I wish he’d just leave me alone. 

Who Am I?

I didn’t follow Cat today. I didn’t tread on my bike searching for her yellow hair, and I surely did not almost get caught by a cop…

Well okay, maybe that last part is true. He came up and said that Cat and Elsa claimed that I was following them. Of course, she’s with Elsa. Luckily Leo came to my rescue. He got Neysa to drop the charges a couple weeks back and since then I haven’t seen him in class, but there he was, in Coconut Grove. He told the cop that the three of us were planning on meeting up there, not much else the cop could do. Leo said he’d help me get Caitlin back too.

In my journal I remembered the first time I raised my hand to Cat. I saw her with Derek at a singing rehearsal. I had accused her of trying to seduce him, “Why didn’t you throw him down and screw him right there?!” I yelled. She said it was just Derek, but I didn’t listen and I raised my hand. I didn’t hit her - it was just a gesture. I don’t think I would have hit her. Would I?

I spent the day with Saint today. It was lovely. We met up with the crew and it would have been a perfect day had it not been for running into Nick at the gas station. Luckily, he didn’t say anything, but I could feel him watching me the entire time. I’m with Saint now… Nick and I will never be together again – I wish he’d understand that. 

He's horrible

I decided to write about what a horrible guy O’Connor is. He’s always had it in for me, even when we were supposedly friends.

We were on the field, at a practice, and instead of throwing the ball to me, he took a penalty. “I didn’t see you Nick, sorry” he said… yeah right!

Screw O'Connor

I HATE HIM! Saint can go kill himself! And what the hell? Since when am I replaceable with him?

I saw them together. I saw Saint with Caitlin at the Texaco gas station and I couldn’t even ask her “why him?” I HATE HIM!

Why didn’t I notice the signs before? Looking back at our relationship I can’t help but to think I was blinded by my feelings for him.

He was controlling and abusive long before he laid a hand on me… telling me how to dress, bringing up my weight, calling me fat, saying I couldn’t sing… he never believed in me, but I never gave up on him. We were two of a kind.

At least that’s what I thought.