Court

I can't believe I actually went to court today. I can't believe Cat did that to me. A restraining order? I made a mistake! I said I was sorry! What more does she want? How is a restraining order going to help anything?

On top of everything, she took away my best friend. That bitch! I need to get her back, I need to make things right… but how am I supposed to do that if I can’t even talk to her?

They're making me take an anger management class and keep a journal. It's so lame! I lost my temper ONE TIME and now I'm being treated like a low-bagged criminal.

Journal

I started my journal. I figure if I have to write 500 words, the sooner I finish, the better. And the sooner I finish, the sooner everyone will be off of my case and Caitlin will take me back.

I wrote about the first time I saw her.

I was with Tom, and I stopped in my tracks.

"That's Caitlin McCourt. Remember from kindergarten? And every grade after that." Tom said.

But she was different. I couldn't stop thinking about her, and fantasizing about her from that moment in the parking lot.

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Today was hard. Well, hard is an understatement.

I still can’t believe that our relationship came to this… a restraining order? I thought he loved me. He wasn’t supposed to hurt me.

It was so hard not to look at him in court. I just wanted to scream at him… to demand him why he did this to me? To us?

The judge made me point him out, and I couldn’t hold it in any longer. Tears streamed freely down my cheeks. How could he do this to me? I loved him.