Nick called me today. I told him to stop calling.

He told me Saint was bragging about my body to him. I told him it sounded like stuff he would say… but of course he denied it. Was he blind to the way he treated me? Blind to the fact that he made me want to die sometimes by the way he talked to me and acted towards me?

He brought up the dolphins.

That night was one of our best… but it doesn’t make up for all the other times. I told him I’d meet him there tonight.

I can’t go.

He doesn’t deserve me anymore.